Sunday, January 10, 2010
The bugs in life....
The New Year has always started with a goodly dollop of hope mixed in..... hope for warmer weather, for a start! I have always made resolutions and not many have succeeded so I stopped doing that.. well, definitely stopped the ones that included the words "diet", "food" or "thinner". I have found that to resolve to worry less and live more for the moment is tied directly to what is going on in my life each day, so that is a useless resolution.... This year my resolution is to just be. Just be everything I can in each moment of the year. Sometimes it will be less than I should be, sometimes more..... but in each instance - I am going to allow myself to Just Be.
Months and months have gone by with so little worry about cml on my part..... there are a good many days where although cml is in my mind, it's not in worry format... it's just there, a part of every day life and actually rather gentle and easy on the mind. It's so good to let those terrible early days just gently waft into the distance in the rear view mirror and smile in thanks of the good things that have come into my life because of Steven's cml.
But tonight that peace was rocked upside down again by these words: