I went there with a happy purpose - two of them - to pick out a wedding shower card for Laura and a wedding card for a friend.......so being sad was the furtherest things from my mind. These days have been good on all levels and especially seeing so many wonderful things going on in Steven's life. And then I found just the right the card for Laura - it said just what I wanted it to. And while I was reading it again for the second time with a smile in my heart and on my face, its wording reduced me, with no warning at all, to unstoppable tears. It said: "Forecasting showers of happiness.........(and inside) followed by a lifetime of love!" And the tears flowed in a very inconvenient shower of emotion.
I know that Steven has a good full life ahead of him. I know that he is doing well. I know that the Gleevec is doing its job. I know that even if Gleevec stops working that there are other meds out there that will pick up the slack and get him back on track. I know this deep down as well as right in front of me. But - those tears would not stop. I dont even know what it was that got them going. One minute I was all happy and excited and really enjoying looking for cards and seeing the hope and continuance of life in the marriage of these young adults.......and then bam! The punch was hard, well aimed and took my breath away......and then I was ok again. It was as if something just clicked into place, I took a deep breath, the tears stopped and on I went. God, I am so grateful for being able to do that - to be able to move on again, to know that for now my son is fine - as are my daughters.